Answering God's Call

So a friend of mine suggested opening up our adoption journey to more than the world of Facebook. God has used this lovely lady to steer me in the right direction previously and it was a great move, so...here we go.
Our FB page is pretty much dedicated to our Operation Megatron adventures (our adoption), but this can be a place to share our journey as a family, to include the adoption.
If you would like to start at the beginning of our journey and you are on FB, please "like" our page. The Cliff Notes version is that we are 9 months into our adoption journey; seeking to adopt a deaf male child 0-8 (preferably 2-7) or a sibling group of 2 that includes 1 deaf/hard of hearing (likely abbreviated d/hh in future posts) child. We are still in the very beginning stages. Our home study will not be complete for at least another month and we are not matched with any children.
We have many needs to be met along the way, the most immediate and consistent being prayer, the second being a toss up between financial and resources/connections. We are looking at international and domestic, because we don't feel that God has given absolute clearance on one over the other, but we've been blessed to be connected with an agency that has already begun to advocate on our behalf before we've even become official applicants. So, if international is the way we go, they are our choice. Choosing an agency has been the scariest and most major part of this process thus far, but God lined everything up just right for us to be linked with them. It didn't take a second thought after we began exploring them, to know they were the ones.
God moved our family in this direction at what seemed like an inopportune time. We were still living in an apartment, with barely enough space for the people already in it. We were completing our first year of actively moving towards a debt free lifestyle. We began homeschooling a month later (also NOT in our game plan). But, God promised he would make everything possible in his timing. We just had to promise to follow through and be willing to include others.
He used the building of the wall in Nehemiah 3 to illustrate to us, not only our dependence on him, but on others. Not easy for us at all. I don't like opening my world up to people, because it often means dealing with unsolicited advice and uneducated opinions, which has happened along the way, but I've also been joined through shared experience to some beautiful people who may not have touched my life otherwise. And their counsel has been imperative to decisions we've made or chose to pass on.
He has caused me to grow personally, as a mother, in recent years. I spent so much time chasing the idea that being a wife and mom wasn't good enough by the definition of those who weren't doing it, or weren't doing it well. I pursued degrees, worked, and thought I had later thought I had lost valuable time chasing the ideas of others. But God wasn't going to let those experiences go to waste. I asked what I was to do with the knowledge I gained and later he told me "adopt a deaf child."
He had also been building my husbands knowledge base for things involved with raising a deaf child and where there was still a cultural disconnect between hearing and deaf worlds. We were both given the same directions by God and were afraid to tell the other. I'm not even sure exactly how we were even drawn into the conversation that led us to this understanding, but we couldn't deny that it was God's will once the cat was out of the bag for both of us. (Neither of us wanted to break the news to the other that God had called us to bring a 4th child into our midst. Lol)
We've journeyed on since that day and have been met with amazing love and support. This has tested our faith on so many levels, and the growth in our household has been phenomenal. The unfolding of circumstances along this journey allows no room for credit to be placed anywhere, but in the hands of God. It takes a huge amount of faith to hear God say the many things he has said to us since we started. We've been called to change the legacy of our family, breaking generational curses spiritually, financially, and emotionally. But God has told us that we are to also change the legacy of the child/ren that he places in our care.
We are to fulfill that vision through homeschooling, adoption, and a debt-free game plan. All which require money, which we don't have tons of.
Yet, we have been plugging away at the debt, taking each step he calls us to towards adoption, and successfully homeschooling 3 children (don't ask for a measurement of that success just yet...lol). He has truly provided. He closed the door on us continuing to live in our small apartment and moved us into the perfect home for our expanding family. I have never loved any of my homes as much as this one and it was an answer to a prayer when I was unsure of what to do.
I can't NOT trust God when he says he has this adoption under control, because he has not failed me, even when I know I failed him. I have no clue how he is going to make this happen, what it will look like, what kind of time frame we are working with, none of those things. But, he has yet to go back on a promise he has made to me, so I know we will see this one through to fruition.
~Queen Bee